Notre foyer ici bas!

Attached is McCall's email. I wanted to just note that if she moves back to France, the Mod pod will be purchasing a second home….a French bungalow….on the beach….to entice her to visit. When she isn't "building the kingdom" of course:)

 So the title is French:) it's the name of a hymn that I love that talks about eternal families. I am going to talk to you about eternal families today:) but first... happy birthday tater and nichel!! and congrats on the wedding matt and kenzie... can't believe I missed that! so the work here.... is non-existant so unfortunately I don't have a lot to tell you except for finding miracles that turned into nothing... so we are in major finding mode right now:) But it's all good! 

On Friday I got to meet up with Fheann (the girl who is getting married at the end of my mission) at the gare.  It was SOOOOOO great to see her! Oh man it had been soooo long! We caught up on life and St. Etienne and my life and it was sooo great! She is a friend for life! I love her and her family! That same day I got to see Nelly which was really cool! It was St. Etienne day for me:) I haven't seen Nelly in ages! Then we ate with the Lepore family.... this is where my world was changed... for like the millionth time on my mission!:)

So this weekend we visited the Lepore's (bishop's family) and the Lecordroch family (daughter of a member in St. Etienne who lives in our secteur) and they both are just SOLID families.  Like the spirit just hits you like a wave when you enter into their home. Soeur Lecordroch served a mission and so did her husband and you can totally tell because they are sooo missionary oriented.  They invited us back for their family night yesterday and cute Sister Lecordroch had planned just the cutest thought for her kids... so age appropriate and then we played this fun card game. Such a sense of love and unity.  Then her kids started playing and we just started asking them how life is after the mission and what we need to do to be a family like them.  It was soooo great! I was just about crying because I am finally to that point where I really actually don't want to go home….. my life is so great here:) real life is soooo scary... not ready for that! I love waking up everyday knowing the only thing I have to do that day is do the work of the Lord.... never again in my life will it be like this... even if I get my dream and I move back as a couple missionary or my husband is a mission president or something... We will still have other things to worry about.  This 18 months is the most unique time I will ever have to do soley this.... ahhhhh I can't come home in 3 months! so we left their house just on a cloud and began contacting everyone on the tram being like "you need this... I promise you need this!" haha we talked to this hilarious old guy that told us "I am Italian... that's why I am so handsome" haha he was HILARIOUS!!! Him looking just like my great- Grandpa barney and was probably the same age as him when he died, 99!... haha so funny!

Then the family Lepore... well they are just perfect and soooo cool! He is French and she is American.. their love story is one for the books! I will tell it when I get home but basically they felt they needed to move back to France and so they picked up their four children and their VERY settled life in Utah and moved to Lyon, France and now he is our bishop.  They all speak French... the wife speaks really well but is still learning... she is in the relief society presidency and gives GREAT lessons! They are just living their life and inviting all of their friends to learn about the gospel and we met some of them and it was wonderful! They are just such a great family; I can't even explain it enough in words but I hope that is my calling sometime in life.  Come back to France and "work" "live" "be normal" but really just build the kingdom:) it's gotta happen! Now I have to find a guy that is on the same inspiration brain wave-length as me:) haha anyway families are eternal. Talking to the Lepore's made me think of my cute little eternal family at home and how cute my future one will be:) haha I love my family so much!!! So proud of them and all their doing!!!! I have a rock star sister in Bulgaria and a literal rock star sister in utah/ vegas/ broadway... I don't even know I can't keep up! haha 

Anyways I love you all so much! Have a great week and help other families be eternal like ours:) 

Soeur mod

Pics with apostles:)

Pic One: Elder Andersen on stage

Pic two: Soeur Mod at the top, looking like she's the only female, but she wasn't of course.

Pic three: Off the stage, taking questions and requesting input.

Sandy note: None of these pictures came from Soeur Mod but it's because the missionaries were given pretty strict guidelines of reverence during Elder Andersen's visit. The Bria's, a Sr. couple serving in Nice, took these. They said Elder Andersen came off the stage and wandered amongst the missionaries and it was a very sacred experience. Sister Bria said, we as parents, should be so proud of our kids; she said it brought tears to her eyes to see and hear the sound of them.

To my non-member friends, Elder Neil Andersen is an apostle in our church. Apostles are special witnesses of Jesus Christ, called to teach and testify of Him throughout the world. They travel frequently, addressing and encouraging large congregations of members and interested nonmembers, as well as meeting with local leaders. It is rare to have all the missionaries brought into one city in the mission to hear from one. McCall's mission has 270 missionaries.

Date: Wed, 11 Jun 2014 17:17:50 +0200

Subject: Pics with apostles:)
From:mccall.modersitzki@myldsmail.net

So I would like to declare my gratitude for my companion and the position her dad holds in the church, well now BYU... because of her I got to take a picture with Elder Andersen!!! ya we are cool! (why it isn't attached, no one knows!)

Anyways I am sure you are allllllll curious as to how the conference went and it was great! Sooooo great! and SOOOOOO hott! Oh my gosh France right now is ridiculously hot for June. Everyone is like freaking out that its this hott this soon and Nice was no better! So unfortunately we didn't really sleep at all the night before the conference in our budget little hotel room but it doesn't matter it was all worth it!!! And somehow the Elders left our suitcase in Nice... so we should be getting our make up and ALLL our supplies to get ready TOMORROW.... Elders. It's fine.. we are over it! The experience is what counts:) 

For a recap of the week... we teach a recent convert named Tams about twice a week! He was found by Soeur Richardson and was baptized in like 4 weeks or something crazy! He is SOOOO legit! He is working on getting the priesthood! His lessons are just great.  I love teaching with Soeur Richardson... she is such a better teacher than I am... I am learning so much! I can't even describe to you how much fun we have... President definitely won't let us stay together:) haha 

Unfortunately a lot of our super cool amis have to go to the other wards in Lyon so we are in finding mode right now but we have had loads of miracles and I know we will see more! We have been working tons with recent converts because Lyon actually baptizes people so there are lots of people to do follow up lessons with and get to the temple! 

Sunday was our stake conference and crazily enough two kids from the BYU dorms were there visiting their brother who is here going to culinary school.  We were trying to figure out how we knew them during the conference and then after they were like "Hey McCall... I mean Sister Mod and Hey Lauren I mean Sister Richardson"... we were like oh my gosh Ryan and Preston!!! soooo crazy! Then they were said "ya remember we met at area 51 that one night?".... how embarassing... we met at 80's dancing night in slc! haha But we all ran around with the same group in Provo in the dorms! It was crazy to see them and they got us all up to date with the latest make-ups and break-ups in Provo... oh the life we have to return to:) I might just stay on a mission!! 

Then that night we passed a family just to get to know them and we find out they are doing like crazy missionary work! Like even there little 7 year old daughter is inviting her friends to church! She kept asking this one friend to come to church over and over and over again. So finally she was on the phone with her and she was like what religion are you? and her friend was like ummmm one second... "mooooommmmmm what religion am I?" hhahaa and the mom comes back with "Je ne sais pas... I don't know" haha #francemissionprobs hahah sooooo hilarious! So we are trying to work with this family so these invitations turn into actions:) 

Then Monday we left for Nice on a bus and we were on the bus for 6 hours!! Talk about Heritage Tours all over again! It was great though; I read talks by Elder Andersen and just prepared... the bus was really reverant.. it was great! Then the conference was just FABULOUS!!! Having the whole mission together was incredible!!! Those occasions like never happen.  And Elder Cairns (spelling?) and his wife were just incredible as well! Oh my such an uplifting meeting.  Elder Anderson basically told us that we need more faith to baptize in this "hard mission". He was like "Your mission is no harder or easier than other missions." So I am trying not to let myself think that anymore... because we always make jokes about how much easier other missions are than our non-believing, God-hating country that we work in:) but it's true each mission is hard for it's own reasons and ours is because the people here have lost their faith... and if we are not careful we will too.  He said baptisms are few and far between but with more faith you can all baptize more.... so we are trying to build are faith back up and fufill this promise!! It really was sooo great hearing from him! It's crazy; you think..an apostle will come here... one that was a mission president in your mission.. and you think "oh he is going to give us the tricks of the trade to do the work here in France" and he talks about the first principle and ordinance of the gospel... for like 2 hours!! crazy! it's soooo simple! Everything boils down to faith....

Do we have faith that we can succeed in our studies?

Do we have faith that we can raise our children in truth and righteousness?

Do we have faith that we can find our eternal companion?

Do we have faith that the food I make us for lunch won't kill us:)?

Do we have faith that everything will be ok in the end?

Do we have faith that with the Savior's help everything is possible?

Everything boils down to faith... everything... and people don't realize that they exercise faith on a daily basis. I encourage all of you to grow in your faith.  Always put your faith in Jesus Christ... he will never lead you astray.  Life will always be ok when we have faith in him who made all possible.

I love you all so much! have a wonderful week!

soeur mod

Oh Lyon!!

Pic 1: Beautiful Lyon from our hike

Pic 2: My St. Etienne peeps! Frere Professo on left:)

Pic 3: Not by the beach anymore but still pretty!

Sooo yes I am in Lyon and it is the GREATEST!!! OH man and my comp is just encore mieux! (Even better) She is the best! We are having a blast! This last week was really different. We were helping with new missionaries coming in and conferences and stuff so we didn't do a ton of missionary work.  Soeur Bentley got kidney stones so we were up with her one morning at 5 to take her to the hospital! that was fun:( Apparently the water in France is terrible! Tons of people have gotten kidney stones and Soeur Warren, one of my comps in Montpellier, wrote and told me she had a bug inside her from the water... like I said... 2nd world country over here! 

But let me get to the exciting news! So Saturday we had a huge stake activity where we played soccer in the park with EVERYONE from St. Etienne!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhh it was sooo great! I literally felt like I was seeing my family at the airport I was sooo excited! They all thought I had finished my mission so they were trying to bisous me and Frere Professo (Sandy note: he is the ward mission leader in St. Etienne who adores McCall. He Facebook messages me at least once a week) just straight up hugged me! haha I was like uhhhh ok whatever! I love that man and I was on such a high seriously! It was wonderful to see them all! Then we played soccer.... ya what? Haha my companion was her soccer club's star and then you have Soeur Mod who could run for days but kick a ball into a net with a bunch of black dudes all up in my grill to get it back from me... ya I am not very good a soccer en bref:) We probably broke a few white handbook rules fighting for the death to win... we came in 2nd:) it was sooo fun!

Sunday we went on this cool hike with these forever amis but it was sooo beautiful! I will send some pictures! OUR WARD IS THE BEST!!! Oh my gosh this ward is incredible! They are inviting their friends to stuff and everyone is sharing the gospel all the time! I feel soooo much pressure here; I am kind of nervous! President Roney told me "we can baptize here and we do!" I have felt pressure my whole mission but when you don't baptize you can just say "oh that is France" haha but not here... Lyon is magical! We already have like 2 amis that will get baptized in the next couple of weeks and Soeur Richardson and I are going to find loads more! We are going to live up to that "power couple" status I've heard we've been given...we promise you:) sooo great to be with her; she has been a breath a fresh air! 

I saw the one and only TJ haws:) He looks great Tiff... I'm not worried about him at all:) He will be AN AMAZING missionary! He has a great trainer and he is in a great ward! His French is soooo good! Seriously president has big plans for him:) be proud not worried! This mission is so great:) Then I saw Armand Overstreet! That was fun! He looks great!!! So fun to catch up with him and he served in St. Etienne so that was fun to chat about people we knew in common! It's crazy all the people you see in Lyon all the time! There are always people here! But anyway I have to go but I LOVE MY LIFE!!! Being a missionary is the best! AND they are playing Rihanna in the internet cafe!... haha oh home:) love you all!!

soeur mod

Birthday's and Books of Mormon :)

this was the best week ever!!!

oh man so much to tell and sooo little time! So I will start with Eric... I am on exchanges with soeur bailey right and we decide to go porting because we really want to find french people and families... hey they both start with f:) so the first house we see... there is a man standing outside and we start talking about our church and soeur b (my comp for the day) was like bringing up the book of mormon so awkwardly and i was like stop it i am talking about the apostasy we are not there yet! haha but she was inspired and he was intrigued about the book of mormon... then he says, "so you are going to lend me this book and then we are going to talk about it later... is that how this works?" i said yes.. lets talk saturday! so we found a member and we talked to him on saturday and had a GREAT gospel discussion with him and sr clark in the park because he actucally lives in his car right now... he is totally french but he is voyaging around the world running races and swimming races... he is sooo fit! he is like this short little ripped dude but he is like a dad he is like late forties and just cool! sooo cool! and he came to church on Sunday all three hours... incredible! 

Then there is Dudu... she is from south africa and she will probably add mom on facebook soon:) she is like our new best friend! we contacted her on wednesday and we tried to contact her in french and she is like nooo i am in a hurry in english and we were like wait we speak english! haha so we ended up talking to her for 45 minutes on the road about God's timing and His plan for us... she is catholic but hasn't been going to church lately because she feels its too much of a routine at the catholic church and she wants to know why she is going to church and not to just go to go through the motions.  She is sooo ready! we have a get to know you lesson on saturday and she tells us its her birthday and so we invite her to come to church with us and then we will have a birthday party that night at the clarks! so she comes to church with us and relief society turned into a bash the catholic church session... it was TERRIBLE! oh my gosh we were dying! thanksfully dudu is anglophone and understands enough french but maybe just the right amount for this fight to have gone over her head! it was sooo terrible but the rest of the day was pretty good.  But she told us she LOVED IT! we were like really? haha but it shows you that the spirit teaches you what you need to learn from lessons and she was touched! then we went to the clarks that night and ate raclette! haha i have eaten that sooo many times on my mission! yikes.  but its yummy! and we talked about how she liked church and she told us how she could feel a change happening in her life since she met us and she can't figure it out... but for the first time in her life she is just going to see where it takes her.  she told us a really personal story from her life and then we gave her a book of mormon with our testimonies inside and a cute bracelet! she was sobbing and I was sobbing and I said, "Dudu.. that peace you felt at church and with us can always be with you if you read this book everyday.  this book with help this change that you feel to keep happenning to become a better person. Its a peace that you can hold in your hands and pray about.  This book WILL change your life." and at that point we were all in tears, my comp, the Clarks... Dudu... everyone! it was one of the most spiritual experiences I have had on my mission.  The best copy of the book of mormon I have ever given away.  she is sooo cool! 

Then Celine! She comes to sport extreme and one of our members offered her a book of mormon and she promised to read it.  so after church we went to her house on the beach:) haha totally want to live there... maybe i will be her roommate when i get home! haha sorry guys i think i am moving back here! ky you in?? haha sorry nich you and scotty can come visit us:) and we had a REALLy great convo about God's love and how to make the best with what we have. it was so great! she is aethist... she thinks.... but she says that everyone has to believe in something and she doesn't know what that is... i was like well we do... so we turned to alma 22 the story about king lamoni praying to see if god is there.... powerful prayer right there. verse 18,,, everyone go read that verse right now! We testified of how God always responds to our prayers! it was good... we finally got to have like a lesson with her and i realized something this week.  The first point in the first lesson is really important and I skip over it all the time. "God is our loving Heavenly Father" so many people don't believe that and their idea of God is sooo messed up.. Even believing people think he is some dictator king but NO he is our father! our literal father who cares for us in a fatherlike manner.  He wants our best... he loves us... he will run to our sides when we need help... he is our biggest cheerleader encouraging us to keep changing and becoming better.  He never stops.  He loves us.  He is the best.  i LOVE my job.  it is the BEST thing i have ever decided to do.  I am so glad i went on a mission. my life has forever changed... and i mean forever.  I love you all

soeur mod

Ma Maman Ame'ricaine (my mom American)

Pic 1: Frozen yogurt! So good!

Pic 2: Josy's baptism

Pic 3: The ville where I would live when I return to France:)

Pic 4: Two common things found here: poop and cigs. 

It was great to talk to the girls yesterday! They're both doing so wonderfully. We actually got to meet Josy on Skype and she is as Soeur Mod says…sooo great:) Yesterday's phone call is our last until we are talking and laughing in person late September! (December for Ally) And depending on a wedding of a French friend of hers, we may be picking her up so she can attend:) The office has told her flight plans are coming in a couple of weeks for her departure…somebody pinch me.

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Date: Mon, 12 May 2014 14:50:24 +0200
Subject: Ma Maman Americainne
From:mccall.modersitzki@myldsmail.net

Happy mother's day everyone!

I got to talk to my cute mamma yesterday and it was the best thing ever! SOOO grateful for my mom/mom's! My amie Josy... who got baptized:):):):) on Saturday thinks she is my French mom because she is always telling me how to live a healthier, economical life! She is hilarious! She is like a walking google... you ask her a question and she has some hilarious home remedy to cure you of whatever you are asking her.  She is soooo great and her baptism was great! SHE IS A MEMBER now!!! ahhh so happy!!!

Anyway the week was very good. I have not a lot of time today. There was another holiday last Thursday which meant that our exchange was cancelled and we were on foot most of the day to get to our rdv's and stuff... there are like 3 major holidays in May in France and it's ridiculous! Nothing is open and nothing is running so we just contacted a lot and passed people in ville and it was fun! We had a girl's night at Emily Paul's house to get ourselves all pampered up for the baptism! Josy wanted her nails painted by Soeur Roberts because she is really good at painting nails apparently haha #hiddentalent. We did 3 sessions of sport extreme this week! #5monthstosexy so ya still feeling a little sore! Most of this week was just getting ready for the baptism. It was in the ville next to ours because our chapel is under construction, so we had to prepare everything really really well.  So it was a good week!! 

It ended even better getting to talk to my cute family and my sister... I was able to talk to Ally for about 5 minutes just she and I and it probably was the best five minutes of my whole mission!!! We sat there and cried and told each other how much we loved each other and how proud we were of each other... haha sooo cheesey but it really was like the best 5 minutes ever.  It's a feeling I cannot describe being on a mission but it's the best feeling in the world... knowing that Ally is feeling that same thing and doing the same thing everyday just pushes me to do more.  She is my hero!!! It was sooo good to share my testimony in French with my family... because I testify all the time in French, the spirit is actually stronger to me now when I speak in French… I guess you could say I prefer to testify in French actually.  I wish I could say I don't cry every time I testify of eternal families, but that would be a lie. It gets me everytime because I am SO grateful for my eternal family! They are the best and I am SO excited to create my own some day! Sooo excited! What a blessing! Anyway sorry this email is all over the place! en beef (in short)... it was a fabulous week! love you all!

Soeur Mod

Happy Cinco de mayo

Happy cinco de maio!

Ya i have no idea how to spell cinco de maio actually.... I speak French not Spanish:) HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALLY CAT!!!!

So the wind this week in Montpellier was out of control! It's better now but I hope it's not that windy all summer like it was in Perpignan, my first area! 

Again happy birthday Ally!!!:)

So this week I went to Carcassonne on an exchange and it was great! It's sooo beautiful! I will send pictures.. oh man! There is a beautiful castle there! The biggest greatest miracle ever.... the sisters there are teaching a family that is from Bulgaria but they speak Spanish.. ya I don't know how that happened but anyway.. I couldn't really communicate with them because I understand a lot of Spanish actually but I can barely say anything... haha so Soeur Buonanotte translated for me and their family lives next to Ally in Bulgaria! We were all freaking out and they were like... "your sister has to find my family in Bulgaria and bring them the gospel!!' and I said welll she is pretty good at finding and baptizing families!! I will pass the referral along!! haha How cool is that??? Ally cat your going to baptize another family:) It made me kind of homesick for my sisters but so happy to know that my sister is doing the same thing I am in a different land but the gospel is the same for everyone! I was soo happy for that! It was a great lesson but I could only concentrate on sending this referral to Ally:) 

Then we had zone conference and interviews which were really great! I always love talking to President Roney and he is always so complimentary and nice! He makes me feel good about myself! love him. 

Then on Thursday we had our ward picnic and one of our friends from sport extreme picked us up and took us there! Her name is Celine and she is really nice! We got to know her on a whole different level and she is just soooo great! I love her! She is athiest but we are hoping that she realizes she needs the gospel because she sooo does! She moved here for a boyfriend and now they are no longer together.... she is beautiful and fun and cool so I am trying to think of who I can set her up with:) haha you know..all of my French friends here in France:) 

This Sunday was a really special Sunday as well! The testimonies were really good and the spirit was just really strong! It was great! I loved it sooo much! I just love church! We have loads of visitors here on vacation so every week we meet people from all over the world! It's just awesome! 

I have like no time today but know that I am doing well! We had a great week and I will talk to you on Sunday!!! ahhh I can't believe its already Mother's Day! love you all!

soeur mod

pic 1: Beautiful Carcassonne

Pic 2: The Castle!

Everything is ALLL good:)

Sorry ladies and gentlemen for the dramatic email last week... I wish I could say I was being more dramatic than it actually was but that would be a lie.  That was the roughest week of my mission besides the Chrystelle thing.  But anyway this week par contre was much much better! Let's begin with a happy birthday to my mom…Sandals and Er bear:) happy birthday!!! love you both!!! 

Now last Monday we left for Leadership Council in Lyon and I talked with Elder Moeller for the whole train ride! He is just coming from the island of Corsica (which is in the mission) so I was getting all the cool secrets about that tiny little island:) I got to spend the night in Lyon and stay with Soeur richardson (MTC companion) it was soooo great!!! And Soeur Bentley! (from Alpine) We talked about all the people gettting married or who are married... haha and how crazy that is! I swear every week someone new is engaged or married!  Congrats to all of you:) On Tuesday we had our leadership council, which is always the best thing ever! So very powerful.  I received so much direction that I needed in my life as a missionary and the spiritual boost to get over this moment of hardship and find the next person who needs this gospel! We were blessed with lots of new amis this week and lessons and I know its because we decided to change our attitude:)

Wednesday we had an exchange in Perpignan, my first area and it was really great! We had random things to do all day so we were teaching, testifying and working out all day... yes I said working out... So our ward does Sport Extreme which is where we all get together and watch the Insanity work out videos... We put it online and now we have loads of people who come and it's killer! Literally we are dying! So Soeur Bragg and I went to Sport Extreme Thursday night because we have some potential amis who go to it. 

Thursday we had zone training which we did completely in French which is not common unless you're in the Switzerland zone.. haha So when it came time to do our part as Sister Training Leaders we had not prepared to do it in French but it came out well I think. I love zone trainings.. they get me pumped up again:) It was awesome! One zone leader said something that I really liked.. he said, "this is reality.. being a missionary and living the gospel to the fullest everyday is real life... this is as real as it gets." and it's so true... never in my life will the purpose of life be as real as it is now.. I hope I can keep that feeling and knowledge forever... this is what it's all about; sharing the gospel and being an example at all times and in all things and in all places:)

Also on Thursday we finally saw Josy... BIG miscommunication but very frustrating quand meme because she had made a mountain out of a mole hill… literally. It was the most ridiculous story and she accused me of saying things I never said nor understand in French.  But she was like don't worry Soeur Mod I am over it and I forgive you... haha I was like ok well then I guess I should say sorry? So ya she is getting baptized still on the 10th but we are leery about it just because we are afraid she will offend and be offended her whole life.  But she is ready... she knows this is true she has a testimony.  There is nothing stopping her and I am very happy for her.. I am soo happy to have her back in my life to be honest.  I love her sooo much even though sometimes it's rocky.

On Friday we were on another exchange; this time with a sister equipe that is still really struggling.... the ones we went to go see last week?  We had a big companionship inventory together at the end of our exchange and it was really good.  They are polar opposite.  They have pretty much nothing in common.  But we told them something we were inspired by the spirit to say and I want to share it with you all.  We said, "You maybe very different but you will always have one thing in common and that is the gospel... "you are both members of the true church of God... and that should always be enough. That should always be the most important thing to have in common with someone." It went well and we invited them to study the gospel.  We will follow up next week:)

Saturday was probably one of the craziest days of my life.  So we went to Sport Extreme and had like 14 poeple there! Just leading and translating Insanity!! #sixmonthstosexyhasbegun! After we went to see our amie Fanny.  Well we get there and she is dressed in this tiny black dress with lots of make up on... so I knew immediately something was up... We go in and there is this guy that is sooo scary and creepy, wasted drunk on her couch.  Then there were two sketchy girls chillen on the couch; helping this poor drunk guy roll his own cigarette while the kids played on the ground with this super gross dog... I literally felt like I had walked into hell.... seriously the worst feeling ever just came over me and had to fight back tears the whole time we were there.  So this drunk guy we found out was her "super Christian boyfriend" starts saying "Why did you invite the Mormons over here?" and starts going off about how we aren't Christian and I was like dude you won't even remember this conversation in five minutes so zip it:) haha but I didn't say that... anyway we bore testimony and thankfully we were with our member that knows her well so he took control of the situation. When we left, I just started crying in the stairwell.  I couldn't move I was practically paralyzed by fear for those sweet kids.  I looked at our member and I said, "Those kids can't stay there." and he said "Don't worry Soeur Mod she will get it figured out but she has to get there because she chose it, not because we are forcing her.  I just can't believe how irresponsible some people can be.  Those poor kids were trapped inside an apartment with 4 super immature adults.  I cried for awhile just thinking of how incredibly lucky I am.... how lucky I was to have parents who don't smoke, drink, or party.... parents who are married... and stayed married.  Growing up in a home where I KNOW that I am loved.  I can't really explain the feeling I felt but basically I am just very grateful that I was born into the situation I was because those poor kids weren't. :(

This is long and I have to go but Sunday was great and church was great and I love my life as a missionary! Thanks for your love and support! love you all!

Sister Mod